2010-04-01 - 1:47 a.m.
Every time after, I get depressed, to some degree.
I feel irritable, unsettled, dirty and self conscious. Not right away after, not most of the time. Most of the time, it takes a little while. About as long as it takes for my body to come down from the high of coming and realize whats going on, what just happened.
And then the feeling comes on slowly too. And I don't want to hear his voice, I don't want to be touched at all.
I used to like to cuddle, I remember.